Before I continue with my actual post I do need to explain the meaning behind my blogs name. "Breaking Shells" not a literal meaning but more the fact that this blog will be breaking the barrier/ wall thats surrounds me, the wall preventing me from expressing my true nature, feelings, emotions. especially on a social scale. I am a shy person and tend to keep things bottled up inside so for me to break that shell of mine and let the bottle burst but not in the exploding kind but more the fireworks type of bursting. So while I'm studying this particular subject and doing this blog its the first step I'm taking to be a much more opened person. Definiatley on a path to rediscover myself.
lets move on to the actual post.
Tangley and twisted, what a way to describe my family tree! well my previous post I stated that I have four grannies well its true and i do acknowlege them all I was quite young when all this started but lets start at the begining.
so my fathers mother which is my first Granny that is granny number one. My mothers, mother would be granny number two. so Granny number one and Fathers, Father had a split in there relationship (devorce). and Grandfather decided to remarry, magicaly devloping a third Granny. For most of my childhood I remember having three grannies and I use to have sleep overs at all of them, well it would not have been just , me I have two brothers one older and one younger than me, yes i am a middle child. Suppose that could explains alot. it would be my brothers and I including some of my cousins. My family was a close knitt family and we did many this together. Today thou all has changed I seldom see granny number three and between my studies and work I hardley have time. Getting to granny number four, when i was about 9 years of age i lost my father.
He died at a young age and in a very horrible way, i wont share much it is very sad to even think about it because not long after that I lost a baby sister, actualy it was 3months after my fathers death. Well i suppose I have to mentions more details this assignmenet was looking for depth and I do believe that experiencing all this death at a young age has made me a part of who I am today. My fathers death too as i remember it was frighting, well anyone would think that. The parts that i do remember of this particular night was that I had chicken pocks and was in bed Mom was in bed aswell. Then all of a sudden my uncle came running in and waking Mom saying that my father was burning i did not think at that time that my father was actually on fire. Turns out that he was and in his car that was burning. After that all i remember was that he didnt die then and he came up into our house and everything was black and gray his clothing was burned on him and everything was horrible. Just thinking about it now im tearing up and imagening how much pain he must have been in. (this is one of my most personal moments in my life and i hardley share it with anybody, but this is a jounery that i'm taking and i had to share it.) I have been through tough times my entire family has but I do believe that through the years we learned to move on and the tough times makes one a stronger person.
moving away from the sad and into an enlightment, my mother met a guy and got married. That is when me and my brothers were granted with a StepFather automatically granting me with granny number four. All of them have been a help to me throughout my life and even though two of them has husbands the women in my family are all Independant and i do appluade them for it plus that was a major influence on me because i believe i am as independent as they are.
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