I was born in Cape Town, Heideveld. the place where my dad is from. I have lived all my life in Cape Town and has never been anywhere else, But i do remember in my childhood we moved. I guess that is one of the reasons that my mom cannot find any of my baby pictures. What i remember most of the moving around part is that I tend to make friends easily but then we always had to move again and then it was time for goodbyes again. I think because of the environment I was born in, today is still make friends easily but most of the time the friendship never lasts. Its seldom that i would actually have a very close friend be it a girl or guy even though most of the time I would prefer having a friend that is a guy instead of a girl. Reason i grew up surrounded by guys, to brothers and most of my cousins are boys. I did have my tomboy moments but my inner girl shined the brightest over the years.
Think that can be another reason why its hard for me to be in a relationship, i tend to push people away, or never let them get too close to me, they always just see the top layer of me. Very seldom the inner me because that's the part that's the most vulnerable and I am so afraid of being hurt again, even thou all the pain that i have been through in my life saying goodbye to many different people, loosing family members I still turn out strong. does not mean it would hurt any less. Gosh I actually found the core reason for a problem I've been dealing with for a long time now.
The whole moving around thing was an environment I was born in i never choose it. I was too young to ever think of what that might have done to me. I do believe as well that you can choose the type of person that you want to be but it does not change your past.
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