WHO AM I?
So this is the new topic of my blog and this time I decided to put everything in one post. Ok trying to decide who I am, well I know who I am but then again when I was briefed with the new topic obviously I had to explore some other areas of myself and look deep within so I’ll be back tracking from the first briefing to now an discover what I figured out about myself or WHO I AM. While I do that I still have to come up with a practical component which has to be a garment that I made myself I think I know what I want to do but we’ll see
1 October 2012
Today was the first official briefing Lol, ok I say official because we where briefed the previous term on what to do but being the procrastinator I am I didn’t start then. Well this is what has to be discussed yes the topic is who am I? And it its like looking at yourself in many different ways and figuring out the real you, well not something that sits well with me I hate sharing feelings and things I’ll normally bottle up everything. Well moving on so this supposes to be like awesome and like my blog name it’s a rediscovering process like having an epiphany. So for the first briefing the one we got before 4th and final term started was to do an alphabet with things that describes me. Soo I came up with a few I wont go through the entire alphabet but just a few things: F- for friendly I seem to make friends easily but then again I’m a C- commitment issues I don’t keep friends for very long periods of time but I got a L- Loyalty because I do have a few close friends that I’ve known for years and I’m defiantly still sticking with them, A- Adjustment I tend to adjust well with my environment I can be a chameleon at times can blend in but not always the case only when I’m S- shy being a shy girl you just want to blend in. I got another C- comfort zone when I’m in this I tend to be very lively and don’t mind being in the spotlight with this said I have a tendency for I- indecision I’m very indecisive and this is a big problem for me because I’m a P- procrastinator and being indecisive does not mesh well together I still got another I-imagination I seriously have a wild imagination and that probably the reason my I am such a B-bookworm I totally love to read!!! .... ok that was a few things about me and my Rushing alphabet
4th October 2012
TANGLEY AND TWISTED
This is a reference to my pervious post. About my family dynamics and because I think that this is a post that describes some of my background and made me the person I am today if that sounds correct, I believe that everything that people go through get reflected into their present and their future. A lot of people think that the past should stay there but for me yes there are some things that I do not want to think about but if it was not for that I wouldn’t be where I am today, not this strong yet vulnerable person I am today. Yes with me there is a bit of a fire and ice stigma, but it’s because I know pain and wouldn’t want to feel that again but I also know what its like to be happy doing something you love and being with people you love. I can be a coward at time because I’m scared but most of the time I bring myself out of it, if I don’t ever try how the hell will I know what I’m capable of or not if I don’t take a risk. So because I have a support team behind me I can move on and because of what I went through at a very young age I know I’m way stronger, maybe went off base a bit I don’t know but suppose this is relevant.
6th October 2012
INDEPENDANT WOMEN
I believe independence is a character that does define me, in the lecture I know my lecture said that we have to make sure that a feeling or emotion or what you do doesn’t define who you are, but to me think that independence lives within me and maybe because I have a big ego that I don’t like depending on others maybe if I was truly honest its because I hate disappointment (who doesn’t). So I work for myself and if something needs to be done I’ll do it myself, but if I need help I can admit that I do, even thou don’t like asking for help. It’s just a part of me and this is something I like in me.
9TH October 2012
FASHION
I am a fashion design student and it does not define me, its a part of me yes but its not who I am, I’m studying this because its what I love to do and always have since I was a kid and today I’m 20years old well 21 in four days (YAY) well I’m only 1st year and the reason for me only starting at this age well we go back to the alphabet lol indecisive person I’ve always wanted to do this but as you know the outside world lol is a very scary place and the influence of some people (Dad) not wanting me to do this but do management (come on what I’m a going to do in boring classes like that) although when I applied for fashion I made management my second choice, and I actually got accepted for both courses (go figure). Although for the 2years gap, I have been working in retail, was still in a fashionable environment and till today I’m working there even though I’m studying and pursuing my dream (independence loll).
Then we move to the actual fashion does clothing define me? No it doesn’t, but it doesn’t stop people, from judging you on how you dress or put a label on you. So for me I dress to what I feel good in even though I know its not what my parents like because I am a Muslim girl and I am truly trying to be a good one (please don’t judge). So to some extent I do dress with the influence they give. I actually asked a friend of mine what he thinks, I was discussing this assignment and through the question who am I at him and he went straight to fashion and this is what is he says ‘I don’t think fashion defines you. You really good at it and you have a great sense of style, but there’s much to you than just a pretty face in fashionable clothing, you have a passion for it and you express yourself through the clothes you wear.” Aww he is so sweet lol I’m even making him proof read this.
16 October 2012
Principles and Morals
Things that define a person to some extent is their principles and morals things they grew up with in believe In. These are things that I stick to and it seldom changes. Well I grew up knowing that I’m a Muslim girl and there are a set of morals that one should follow, so that plus my strict parents made me a girl who’s 21 don’t have a baby don’t smoke and don’t drink!!! Yay for me well to be honest I have tried smoking and drinking (due to peer pressure of cause) but I figured quickly that it’s not for me and due to my will power I will not go back to that ever.
My practical components
So I decide (yes I decided it took a while) to make a dress/top from scratch and I’m taking my grannies dress and making me a top and a skirt.
Reason for me taking my grannies dress is to bring some of my gene into it and it symbolises what passes over the generations. Yet it has my own twist to it because its mine now and I am making these garments to wear. So even thou it was hers and it’s been handed down to me, it has some of her in it but I’m not her and I do have my own ways and the way I dress is different to what she does.
I took one dress and make it into a shirt and a skirt this is a symbolises my variety I’m not just one, there is a whole lot more to Rushana, I’m not just a fashion student like I’m not just a dress I don’t just look like my mom I got qualities of Dad as well. Its is white/cream lol which is innocence and me being an innocent young lady although its a brocade fabric which has many patterns all over shows all the many different paths I can move towards and the paths I’ve crossed and came from.
When I started this dress/top I didn’t have any pattern made or design, its because I wanted to take the journey blind folded like my life because I never know where I might end up if its going to be good or bad but I ended up with a dress/top and its a perfect reflection of what it means to just go with it and believe that you will make it work and that my attitude on life.
The dress/top I made is another symbolism of variety you can where it as a dress or a top, depends on your mood, because I’m an indecisive person, and its options that I like giving the whole fire and ice effect again (I’m indecisive but I like options). The fabric is chiffon and very transparent and has polka dots, the dots for me are black and it represents the many environments I’m always placed in such as work, home, campus, there is the chameleon effect and me adjusting. The transparency of it shows that through all my strong will I am a vulnerable person.
